I reverted to Islam 8 years ago- 4 months before September 11- with only the revelation of Quran as guidance. Lately, I feel as though I am literally losing it! I initially had a vague idea of the Sunni /Shia but was grossly unaware of how deep the divide is and it seems that I am constantly challenged and distracted by all of these sects. Each time I learn of a new sect it is as shocking, hurtful, and confusing as the rebellion and consequence that ensued in my childhood from being unable to accept that God could kill his son and that I was the beneficiary of such a heinous act. I know that the comparison is strong but I feel like I'm always in a state of mistrust and rebellion because of all the sectarian heresies of which there is no possibility of a mere person such as I to sort through.
I'm lonely, tired, and feel ostracized because I have nowhere to belong. My family is non religious and I'm so afraid of aligning myself with any sect and bringing the wrath of Allah, swt on me because of alignments, that I am quite literally an Islander venturing out only for provisions which are becoming fewer and fewer - physically as well as psychologically because I no longer have networks and supports, though I continually try to reach out. And I feel that I can't be with the believers if I'm walking alone so who do I say that I am with on the Day of Judgment? Can it be, I was wondering the other day, Since there is only one path Islam but people continue to differ, some saying there are many and others saying that all but theirs is divergent- can it be that as Muslims we are all on the same path but as some men walk and some ride and some are carried that we are perhaps only on different vehicles? I'm trying to help my children learn how to live in this world and their religion, yet I have no clue how to navigate these sects which most appear to me to be in error in one way or another and also righteous in other areas.
Well, I suppose that I am carrying on but what I'm telling you is genuine and frightening and I want to thank you for publishing the article it came at a time that I needed to read it.
My comments, to sister Kimm, and other "Sect Muslims"
1. Just being a Muslim is a great blessing from Allah, SWT.
2. Definition of a Muslim:
The definition of a Muslim can be understood according to the hadeeth of Jibreel AKA, more popularly known as the ′Hadeeth Jibreel′, as narrated by Umar Ibn Al Khattab, when Jibreel asked the Messenger of Allah about Islam, he answered " Islam is that you witness that there is no god but Allah and that Muhammad is the Messenger of Allah, and you establish the prayer, and you give the Zakat, and you fast Ramadan, and you perform the hajj of the House if you are able to take a way to it."
All Muslims agree on principal matters in Islam. The Foundation of Islam is Shahadah as a declaration of faith. Muslims have one Quran, one Kaabah, and one last prophet. They accept all messengers in the Quran. They pray 5 times a day, fast Ramadan, pay Zakat, and perform Hajj when they can. There are accepted Mazhab (school of thoughts, 8 taught in AlAzahar)) in Fiqh (jurisprudence). Every Muslim is free to accept a Mazhab. All Imams of accepted Mazhab never rejected other Mazhab. Allah made the Quran and Islam simple, but some people exert much effort to make them hard and confusing.
3. Sister Kimm said : "these sects which most appear to me to be in error in one way or another and also righteous in other areas." because Muslims from one sect try to show her the negatives of other sects. They were really confusing her. This is in spite of each Imam of Fiqh school commended other accepted Mazhabs, as these Mazhabs are taught in AlAzhar AlSharief, for many years, and many other reputable Islamic Universities.
4. Here is my question: Are some Muslims trying to be better Muslims, or confusing revert Muslims ?????
5. May Allah, SWT, bless Sister Kimm and her children and guide them to be strong Muslims