I get many emails advising me to open my heart to Jesus. These are sincere friendly Christians that want to save me from hellfire. I also get emails accusing me of twisting the words of God, and I am doomed to hell.
I embarked on a journey of more than 10 years searching for God and Religions. It was not easy. I wanted to be absolutely sure of my conclusion. My search was comprehensive, systematic and spiritual. I put this experience in my first book "History of Truth, The Truth about God and religions".
Part of this search concerned Jesus. I love him. I love his teachings and his parables. I imagine him very handsome with long white dress and a beard. I also love Maryam (Mary), his mother. This great lady that saw what no other woman before or after her saw. I imagine Mary with an angle face, long dress and headscarf.
Please note: The following is just a thought process. No claim of vision, like Paul, or even Oral Roberts, is implied here.
My heart is opened to Jesus and Mary many times. One day I was thinking about his alleged crucifixion, then I had the feeling that Jesus tells me:
Do you believe that I was on the cross and then I said ""Eli, Eli, lama sabachtani?" My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?" as in Matthew 27:46, or I said , it is "Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachtani?" My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?" as in Mark 15:34. How can anyone believe that God has abandon me? I knew my mission in life, so how can that be called abandonment? This statement is absolutely not true. God never abandon me. It was not me on the cross. You know that the same sentence, word for word, exists in the songs of David, Psalm 22.1. It was a Jew asking God for help from the Old Testament.
Next, how can anyone delete from modern Gospels or add to classic Gospels about 50 verses from the Gospels.?
Then I asked Jesus, Are you the son of Man or the son of God. I had the feeling that he said"
I stated in the Gospels that I am the Son of Man 84 times, and Paul and people called me Son of God" 63 times.
The King James Version "Jesus heard that they had cast him out; and when he had found him, he said unto him, Dost thou believe on the
Son of God?"
The New Revised Standard Version "Jesus heard that they had driven him out, and when he found him, he said, "Do you believe in the
Son of Man?"
FOOTNOTES: Other ancient authorities read [the Son of God]
The New Revised Standard Version "The God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob, the God of our ancestors has glorified
his servant Jesus"
The King James Version "The God of Abraham, and of Isaac, and of Jacob, the God of our fathers, hath glorified
his Son Jesus;"
So I thought: who are you Sir?
He said "Read the Gospel, I called myself "son of man" 84 times, people called me "son of god" 63 times in the Revised Standard version of the Bible. I spoke Aramaic. I said Abba in Aramaic, which means father in English. Abba in Hebrew, Aramaic, Arabic, and Greek (pater) means father or a title of honor. I meant it to be a title of honor for God, not what the writers of the Gospel translated as father.
Then he said "I am indeed a servant of Allah. He hath given me revelation and made me a prophet. And He hath made me blessed where so ever I be, and hath enjoined on me prayer and Zakat (charity) as long as I live. (He hath made me) kind to my mother, and not overbearing or unblest. So peace is on me the day I was born, the day that I die, and the day that I shall be raised up to life (again)". Such (was) Jesus the son of Mary: (it is) a statement of truth about which they (vainly) dispute. It is not befitting to (the majesty of) Allah that He should beget a son. Glory be to Him! When He determines a matter, he only says to it "Be", and it is." (Quran 19:30-35)
Finally I have strong evidence from the Bible, Please check the verses above. George Bush was ordered by God to invade and destroy Iraq, and he does not have any evidence for that. But I have evidence from The Bible.